Another day of unnerving tension and restlessness. Today at the office I was struggling to concentrate and focus on programming work. I also had a zoom-meeting, which was much easier to handle than quiet desk work, even though I definitely an introvert and feel very awkward in social situations at times.
One thing that occurred to me that I kind of expected to lose motivation at some point because of how I feel. That’s what happens when I get depressed, but not this time. I was fully awake at all times, more energetic. But the constant tension in my body and mind seemed to start taking a toll on me.
While shopping, my body felt weak and when cycling home I needed to drive slower than usual.