Now playing: New Escape by Smigonaut
\nI'm almost at the end of my first week of fulltime work after 'the incident'. A whole week of staring at my screens, without making any progress and muttering curses into my nonexisting beard. God, it feels great to be working again.\nI almost wrote alive instead of working there. Which reminds me, how I realized in the previous months, how much my selfesteem and my work influence each other.
\nflowchart LR\n\nA[Self esteem]-- makes enjoyable -->B[Work]\nB-- improves -->A\n\n\n
This might be the first non-nonsensical diagram on this site \\o/
\nThis is only a healthy relationship as long as everything is good with the work. As soon as a projects goes wrong, or I get pressure, my whole self collapses. That's not good for obvious reasons, which is why I want to break up this relationship or rather, tie my self-esteem to something I can control, something that comes from within me.
\nWhat would that be? I have no clue. For the moment I'm just glad I realized this fact. And for everything else, I will hopefully get some help from my future therapist. Btw, I got a call and an invitation for a first session at an institute of psycho therapy. Yayy! 😄
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