v0 or v1

I have chosen to release this project on version 1.x rather than 0.x. By release I mean the first version where it was online and actively used by me. You could say, the first production release. Not sure if I want to call my messing around here production, but whatever. Actually, that't the whole point of starting with v1.

It may not be much, but I feel like it does something to my brain, where I feel like This is good enough to actually use and to show the world. This is not some half-assed beta software which will be stuck on 0.99999 forever because its creator feels it's still lacking, it's still not good enough.

I guess this is an analogy to myself and how I see and started accepting myself for how and who I am. You see, I always felt and still feel often that I'm not good enough. I was shy to show myself and my way of interacting with the world reflected that. I had so many failed attempts at just making a fucking blog and writing words on it.

Because I always felt it was not good enough. What I really was feeling was that I was not good enough. I projected that feeling onto the software I was writing and so I never felt happy to finish and actually use my software. Because then I would need to scrutinize that software. And since that software was so deeply intertwined with my self-esteem, I would need to scrutinize myself.

God, that felt good.

I finally got something off my chest I feel like was there for a long time.