Working is fun again

Now playing: New Escape by Smigonaut

I'm almost at the end of my first week of fulltime work after 'the incident'. A whole week of staring at my screens, without making any progress and muttering curses into my nonexisting beard. God, it feels great to be working again. I almost wrote alive instead of working there. Which reminds me, how I realized in the previous months, how much my selfesteem and my work influence each other.

flowchart LR

A[Self esteem]-- makes enjoyable -->B[Work]
B-- improves -->A

This might be the first non-nonsensical diagram on this site \o/

This is only a healthy relationship as long as everything is good with the work. As soon as a projects goes wrong, or I get pressure, my whole self collapses. That's not good for obvious reasons, which is why I want to break up this relationship or rather, tie my self-esteem to something I can control, something that comes from within me.

What would that be? I have no clue. For the moment I'm just glad I realized this fact. And for everything else, I will hopefully get some help from my future therapist. Btw, I got a call and an invitation for a first session at an institute of psycho therapy. Yayy! 😄